Chapter 24

Me: deshay yuma

Mum came in my room ..

Mama: sem3eny, men elyoum o raye7 maku 6al3a men elbait, 7adch elmadresa o terj3eeen

Me: bs yumaa-

Mama: ush maby asma3 9otech, ana yaya agool ely 3endy ou ba6la3 sam3tny???

I nodded with my head looking at the ground ..

Me: swalef bs barou7 bait maysa, bas barou7 bait basma maku fahma??? 7ata eljam3ya mat6benha taben shay kumar mawjoud! wela tara ha awa9el elsalfa 7ag oboch o ukhoch, 7emday rabech ana lail7een sakta

A hot tear fell on my cheeks, this is HELL.

Mama: o ghadach bl 9ekhan, tabeen nezlay eklay

She said her last words while getting out of my room and slamming the door behind her ..

This can't be happening ..

I laid in bed crying, there is nothing to do just cry and thats what im only doing since yesterday ..

I cried for minutes, then a sound from the window interuppted me, what is happening out there?

I saw a rock hitting my window, so I rushed to see who's throwing the rocks ...

Faris??

I slowly opened the window ..

Me: fariiiissss

Faris: denyaaat faariss

Me: faris please rouuuu7 please, ester 3alay alah ykhaleek mu nag9a fethaye7

Faris: zayoun ana magdar chethy, magdar makaaalmch wala amout

Me: maku shay bednaa now, rou7 alah ykhaleeek roou7

Faris: ana yayeblch mobile 3ashan tkalmeny, nezlay beskat o ekthee meni tukfaaain

Me: la2 faris walaaa magdar magdar mu nag9a, wala omy tethb7nyy

Faris: zayoun magdar wala magdar

Me: khaaala9 enshoof she9eer ba3dain bs al7een rou7, etha t7ebny rou7 alah ykhaleek

He frowned, we were staring at each others for couple of seconds then he went to his car, he smiled weakly to me and waved, I waved back then he started to drive the car and I was just staring at his car from the window going smaller and smaller the farther he went .. This is gonna be hard, for both of us

This week passed by dreadful slow, it was just school, home, school, home! the 'good' part is im having time to study, mum & I's relationship couldn't get any worser, we barely talk, we just talk a little bit around aziz and baba just to not let them feel that there is something wrong, but if its me and mama? we NEVER talk, she doesn't even feel like seeing my face ..

Today is thursday, I came back home and joined my family for lunch

Baba: ela zayouna wain betru7een elyom?

Me: wala mukaan

Aziz: ghareeba hal ayam zaytouna 9ayra 3ayouz mate6laa3

I peeked at my mother, and she caught me peeking at her

Mama: a9lan a7sanlha elga3da bl bait 3ashan tet3wad lama etzawaj mu kela hyaata

A7s'ha etdawer shay 3ashan etrage3

Baba: ee bs 3ad mu chethy, 6el3ay hal ayam kela 7akra nafsech bl dar

Mama: golay 7ag maysa tyeelch, a7sanlkum

Me: khala9 agolaha

After having lunch, I went upstairs to change my clothes then went back downstairs and found only my mother in the living room

Mama: *bnafseya* dagaitay 3ala maysa?

Me: la al7een badeg

Mama: shofay laykon 7sbalch ana gelt chethy 3ashanch? tara 3ashan uhma may7eson, ou 7emday rabch eni ga3da aster 3alaich

I swallowed my tears and nodded my head .. I called maysa and told her to come over now, she agreed el7amdela

Minutes later, she arrived and we went upstairs to my room! as soon as we entered the room, I locked the door and started to cry my heart out in maysa's chest

Maysa hugged me so hard ..

Maysa: t3wethay men ebleees zayouna

Me: maysa!!!! this is hell!!!! mani gadra at7aaamal

Maysa: 7abeebty walah 7asa feeech, wala 7assaa

Me: jude and hala is treating me like a person they don't know & we used to be sisters!!!! mama is treating me like a trash in the house!! and faris? oh how much I miss him, mu gadra at7amal hal 3eesha maysa wala amout a7saanli

Maysa: besmela 3alaich, thekray rabech zayoun! kelshay o lah 7al may9eer chethy tgoleen

Me: khalaaa9 wala ta3abt

Maysa: zayoun? 

Me: hmm

Maysa: tabeen tkalmeen faris?

Me: walaahh?? eeee please tukfain ee yalaaa yala now! degay degaay

Maysa: *giggling* enzain shfeech now badeg 3alaih khala9 haday

Maysa grabbed her phone from her bottega bag and dailed faris number, I took the phone from her
Faris: ha maysa

His voice seems so broken and sad ..

Me: *whispering* fariss

Faris: *surprised* mnuu? zayoooun??

Me: eee ee

Faris: yaaaaa hala walaaa, ya hala bl zaaaiin kelaaaa, tawa maradat ro7yyyy 3ugub masm3t hal 9ot!!!!! akhhh yany meshaaaaglch, akhhhh wala bamout men elwalaaahh

I started to cry, I tried so hard to swallow my tears but I couldn't awal masema3t 9outa bechait, I miss him, I really do!!!

Faris: baaass ya rou7yyy!! etha le kha6er 3endech latabcheeen tukfain tara walah mat7amal ashofech tabcheen

Maysa *whispered to me*: ush ushh laysm3oona ahalch latabcheen

I tried so hard to stop crying, and I finally did

Me: faris I miss you!!!!

Faris: 3ayaaal ana shagoool? zayoun jad eb hal sboo3 3araft ena law ymer youm wa7ed bedoon la asma3 9otech amout!! o bhal sbou3 met alfain maraaa walah 

Me: khala9 walaa faris magdar at7amaaal akthar

Faris: ana bakh6bech, gelt 7ag omy eni bakh6ebch bs galatly eb shahar khamsa lana tawa metwafy yadyy

Me: e7na eb january now, ya3ny mabuga shayy

Faris: eeee akhh na6er 3ala nar, na6er 3ala a7ar men eljamer walaa

Me: faris lazem arouu7, maysa ga3da t7en lana tkhaf a7ad yesma3na

Faris: laaa taw elnassss tukfain la2, masolafnaa wayed masheba3tt

Me: wedyyy wala bas shsawyy

Faris: deray balech 7ayate ok? o latethaygeen khelgch, kela arba3 khams ash'hur o t9eren 7aram 'faris alflany'

Me: *giggling shyly* inshaaalah

Faris: alah y7afthech galby

After talking to faris, I felt so comfortable el7amdela, jad wayed ertaa7ttt!!

Days passed by and nothing ever changed, exept that everything went back to normal with hala and jude, they understood me el7amdela and I was so happy that we're back together!

Later that day, I came back to school, rosey told me that mum is upstairs at her room so I decided to go to her

*knock knock*

Mama: mnuu??

Me: ana zayoun

Mama ignored, shay 6abe3y 9ar now, t3awadt :)

I entered room and found her sitting at her dressing fixing her hair, I came to her and kissed her forehead ..

Mama: tabeen shay?

Me: ee

Mama looked at me with questioning eyes ina shnu tabeen?

Me: mama abee rethach, *chocked in my tears* mama wala ana asfa 3ala ely swaita adry eny maste7y o afashel o qaleelat adab 3ala ely swaita o nazalt sharaf 3ayltna bs wala yuma ana met7asfaaaa, t3abt 9arlena foug elshahar we7na 3ala hal 7al, yuma ana walaht 3alaich, walaht 3ala swalfech, walaht 3ala lamatch! tukfaaain erthay 3aaanii ou sam7eeeny tukfain

Mama looked at me, 3yonha kanat mghorga

Mama: zayouna 7abebty, ana 3umry maz3alt 3alaich, wala ra7 az3aaal, ana yemken 9a7 makent akalmech wala a36eech wayh bs kent ga3da asawy kel hatha 3shan ma9la7tch, 3ashan t7esen eb ghala6ch! wela matadreen ana knt akheth kel akhbarch mn rosey .. kalaitay, nemtay, sharabtay, darstay, 7alaitay wajebatch, kel hatha kan yhemnyy lana 3umry maz3alt mench 3ashan artha 3alaich! ana bas kent abeech t7esen eb ghla6ch

Me: mama wala 7asait waaala, matadreen shkether thag khelgy eb hal shahar hathaa wala, akhyas shahar eb 7ayate kelahaa!! ana abee rethach wala bs abe rethach eb hal denyaa

She stood up and hugged me tight while crying

Mama: rathyaa 3alaich ya bnayty rathyaaaa

Me: el7amdelaaa!! mat9adgeen shkether wanasteenyy

Mama went to her drawer, took my phone and gave it to me

Mama: zayouna haach telephonch bas please 7abebty latrtkbain elghala6
Me: inshalla mama lat7ateen

First thing I did was delete faris, I told him that I can't keep him, I can't loose mum's trust again, el7amdela he understood! and thats better for both of us

....

May 11, at 2:00

I came back home from school and sat with my mother and father in the living room ..

Mama: 7abeebty zayouna?

Me: hmm?

Mama: yayelch kha6a6eeb

Me: huh??

Baba: 3ad tara 7adhum san3een ou nas mu2dba ou elrayal o elne3m feeh uhwa o uboh o kl 3aylt'hum o 3yal khair ba3aad

Wth?? kha6a6eebb???

Me: ou mnuu hatha??

Baba: faris alflany, weld a7mad alflany

OH MY GOD!!! FAAAARISS!!! Ya 7laaaila walah walaht 3alaaihh 7ail, maskeeen wafy eb wa3da 7abeeeby:(

Mama: *smiling* ha shgeltay ya bnayty?

Fashlaa agol ee 3ala 6oul, lazem nathgel shwaayy 

Me: *shyly* madre afakerr

I went quickly to my room, I was smiling like an idoit and remembering every moment with faris, kelmat walaht 3alaihh? shwaya eb 7aggaaa </3

Mama suddenly came inside my room ..

Mama: zayouna 7abeebty?

Me: hala mama

Mama: entay ge6a3tay 3elaqtch eb faris akher marra?

Me: ee yumaa wala maklmta men 3ugubha wala, wala mu ga3d achathebb

Mama: *giggling* enzain 7abebty shfeech m9adgtch bs s2alt su2al

I giggled

Mama: bas ya7laila wala matwaq3ta eyee o yakh6ebch 7asbaly bas yel3ab, wela 6ala3 mashala 3alaih nawi yakhthech

Me: ee getlch yuma neyatna zawaj wala

Mama's eyes became teary and she rushed to me and hugged me 

Me: *giggling* shfeech yumaa

Mama: *crying* many m9adga benty ely kanat hal 6ooolha bet9er 3arouss

Me: sheftaayy shloun

Mama: alah ya7afthech o yakteb eli feh elkhair inshala, ha endegg 3alaihum engolhum enich mwafqa?

Me: la ne6ray 3alaihum cham youm ba3dain degay, fashla chethy bsr3a cheni mu m9adga

Mama: *giggling* 3ad entay 9ej mu m9adgaaa

Me: *shyly* yumaaa khala9

Mama giggled as she left the room ..

Ahh! I was so happy! I called maysa ..

Maysa: aloo 

Me: guess whaaat?

Maysa: what?

Me: guess yalaa?

Maysa: shdarany golay yaalla

Me: fariisss khe6abnyyy

Maysa: bala chethbb zayoun!!

Me: wala waaala

Maysa: 7elfaaayyy??? ay shay ay shay??? tara wala etha dagga bathbe7chhh wala

Me: wala mu daggaa ya bent elnas

Maysa: *screaming from the phone* ahhhhhh!! ma9adeg ma9adeggg!!! MABROOOUUUUKKK

Me: *giggling* ush ush ga9ray 7esech

Maysa: mani m9adgaaa!! a7la khaaabaarrr!! bye bye bakteb eb bbm!!!!

Me: LAAAAAAAA!! maynouuuna entayyy?? ma7aaad yadriii!!! 7etan ahal faris madgaina 3alaihum o gelna ok!!! shfeeech entay fe9altay 3alaina

Maysa: *giggling* sorry sorry men eleshte6aa6 wala mu menyyy!!

Me: heheh wala a7bechh yal kheblaa

A week passed, mama already called faris mum and told her that we want to see him! faris, his mother and his sister were coming tonight ..

Me: maaaysaa khayfaa

Maysa: chub t7aseseny awal mara teg3deen ma3aa

Me: *giggling* adry ena mu awal mara, bs madre hal mara ghair hal mara ba6ny shayesh 3alay men elkhof madre laish

Maysa: lat7ateen maku ela elkhair, ta3alay ge3day khal asweelch sha3rech ba3ad thalath sa3at beyon
Me: yalaa

Maysa waved my hair, after that I applied make up to my face, then I wore this simple dress:

And my louboutain high heels ..

Maysa: you look breath-taking

Her eyes started to tear

Me: 7elfaay?

Maysa: wala wala! malekat jamaaaal ya bakhat faris feech

I hugged her

Rosey came to my room ..

Rosey: zayouna, mama say come downstairs visitors are here

Me: ok ok, besmela

Maysa: take a deep breath, and remember everything is gonna be ok 

I went downstairs and found khalty nawal (faris's mom), sharifa (faris's older sister which is married), faris, mama, and my grandma .. Salamt 3ala kelman, and I just shook hands with faris without putting my eyes in his eyes ..

Mum's eyes were tearing and I could see her whispering 'alah y7aftech' .. I sat at one of the sofas close to my mother, I still didn't put my eyes in faris's eyes

Khalty nawal: alah alah, esem 3ala musama mashalaa! kel malech o t7lwain alah y7afthech

Me: *shyly* mashkoora khalty matga9reen

Sharifa: shlonech zayouna shakhbrch?

Me: el7amdela tamaam entay shlonech?

Sharifa: bkhair daamch bkhair

I raised my head and found faris staring at me, the moment my eyes met his eyes, I felt like I've missed him more than anything, kan wedy arou7 walemaa o maheda!!!

Mama: zayouna ro7ay ge3day yam faris

Khalty nawal: ee ge3daw hnak bro7kum

I nodded and stood up, I went and sat next to faris in the sofa, but there was space between us! my grandma, mama, khalty nawal and sharifa were soulifing alone in the other side of the living room, they were a little bit far from us ..

I was looking at the ground while sitting next to him, awal mara a7es nafsy mesta7ya men faris laih hal darajja;$

Faris: zayoun?

I raised my head to see him

Faris: walaht 3alaich

I smiled shyly

Me: wlahat 3alaik el3afya

Faris: wentay mu walhana? 

Me: ana denya men elwalahh 

Faris: akhhhhh! akhh tara wala al7een abogech o a6la3 jedam omich

Me: *giggling* mategdar

Faris: lat7adainy asaweehaa

Me: matsaweehaa

Faris: *giggling* walaht 3ala swalfech ya bent elnaass!! eldenya bedonch matswa walaaa

I giggled shyly

Faris: akheeeeran bet9eren 7agi, 7agi ana o bass