Chapter 29

I went to my room, while changing my clothes I was only thinking about faris, what happened to him? how is he now?

I wore this ..

I wore my red high heels and went downstairs to find my mother ..

Mama: tif tiff mashala 3alaich jamaaaal alah y7afthech

Me: 6al3a 3alaaich ya a7la um

Mama: ya bakht s3oud feech

Me: hehe, ela yuma aziz madaag?

Mama: haw laish ydegg?

Me: ena ma6amnkum 3ala faris?

Mama: la tlagena mensheghl al7een! mafe ela el3afya bs laish tes2leen?

Me: wala shay bas at6amaan

I decided to call maysa, I couldn't wait anymore to know what happened to faris! when I stood up, the door bell rang ..

Mama: kahum w9alaaw! ta3alay 7abeebty endakhlhum

So I guess I need to wait till they leave so I could call ..

Mama opened the door and I was standing next to her! two women came in ..

Mama: hala eb um s3oud

Um s3oud: hala feech ya um 3abdl3aziz, shlonkum shakhbarkum?

Mama: el7amdelaah bkhair o ne3ma entaw shlonkum bashrona 3ankum?

Um s3oud: wala el7amdelaa! hathi omyy *she pointed to the women next to her*

Mama: hala wala khalti, shlonech shlon 9e7tch?

Yadat s3oud: wala bkhair! ya 7ilwha hathi alzain?

Mama: ee na3am

I kissed her forehead ..

We went to the living room and there ..

Um s3oud: ya 7alatch ya zayouna wala kubartay! khubri feech youm kintay tel3ben weya saroona bl metwase6

Sarah is s3oud's sister, she was my close friend when we were in middle school, after high school we went to different school ou mn 3ugubha manadri 3an ba3ath ..

Me: ee hehe wala ayaaam

My mind was with faris, its not that I love him, bas a7s ely 9ar eb sebeti ..

Um s3oud: mneera s3oud bara agola ydesh?

Mama: ee 7ayaah alah

We waited for a bit while um s3oud, his grandma and my mother were chatting ..

...: elsalaam o 3alaykum

I turned around to see s3oud ..

Hmm, not that bad, he was kinda good lucking .. tall, bronze skin, short black hair, one little dimple on his right cheek, and his body was fit ..

All: w3laykum elsalam

He sat alone in a sofa which is a little bit far ..

Mama: shlonek s3oud?

S3oud: bkhair khalti intay shemsawya?

Mama: wala el7amdela! zayouna ro7ay ge3daay yam s3oud

Me: inshala

I went and sat next to him ..

Me smiling: hello

S3oud smiling: hala

I looked at the ground ..

S3oud: 3umrech 18?

Me: eeh

S3oud: mashala sgheera

Me: hehe ee, enta cham 3umrek?

S3oud: 25

Me: el3umr kela enshala

S3oud smiling: weyach

Awkward silence ..

S3oud: entay shnu ehtmamtch?

Me: hmm, el fashion o el new trends and to be stylish uhwa akthar shay muhem 3ndyy

S3oud: ee, 7ilu ena elmara tkon mehtama eb hal ashya2

Me smiling: yeah! wenta shinu ehtemamtek?

S3oud: wala ana a7eb el7adag wl ba7aar 7aaail! ou ham a7eb al3ab kuraa

Me: hmm 7ilu

S3oud: 3ad takleen semach?

Me: ee bas mu dayman akon meshteheta!

S3oud: ashwa elmuhem ench takleen

Me: hehe laishh?

S3oud: 3ashan taklen elsemach etha yebt mn el7adaag

Me: hehe ee! ela ent wain teshtqel?

S3oud: eb sharekat uboy! ou 3endy ma7al 7ag dvds ou hal swalef

Me: ahh!

S3oud: entay tadrseen eb jam3at elkuwait 3adel?

Me: ee na3m

S3oud: shtadrseen?

Me: marketing

We talked about alot of random things until they left ..

Mama: ha zayouna shraych feh?

Me: he's good

Mama: ya3ny erta7teela?

Me: ee

I was answering her quickly cus i want to go up and call maysaa ..
After ta7qeeq omy I went to my room and called her ..

Me: aloo 

Maysa *crying*: hala zayon

Me: maysa shfeech?

Maysa: masm3tay bely 9ar eb faris?

Me: embala, shlona al7eeen?

Maysa: zayoun 7alta kha6ra 7ail *snif* uhwa al7een eb ghayboba

I started crying silently ..

Maysa: ma7ad kaser kha6ry ghair khalty nawal maskeena thab7a 3umrha *snif*

Me: latlmoneha galb elum!! alah yajerhaa

Maysa: ee wala! t3alay shlon kanat elkhe6ba? wala sorry magedart akon 3endch intay adra bl throuf

Me: lat2sfain 7abebty 3adee! hmm it was good, shakla 7laiw el7amdela

Maysa: alah ywafgch inshala

Me: ameen! etha 9ar ay shay degay 3alay

Maysa: inshala! yala bye

Me: bye

I was crying silently ou galbi kan y3awrny 7aaaiil! madre laish bas a7es ena ana elsebab beli 9arla, 9edamta ou ga6ait 3alaih kalaam ou lama rekab sayarta sawa 7adeth!! Huuuff yarab tgawma bl salama inshalaah!

Three days passed .. faris is still in a ghayboba, mama called um s3oud and told her that we agreed about the khe6ba ..

I was watching tv in my room when a unknown number called me ..

Me: aloo?

...: esalam

Me: hala, minu?

...: ana s3oud

Me: oh hala s3ouud! sorry ma3rftek

S3oud: hala feech! la 3ady! shlonech shakhbarch?

Me: bkhair enta?

S3oud: bkhair damch bkhair! elyoum kent ga3d ma3a swaira ekhti! ga3d tsolefly 3an swalfkum bl metwase6 wala kentay shay6ana mu hayna

Me: eee hehe wala ayaaam!

S3oud *in a teasing voice*: akhaf lail7een shay6anaa?

Me *giggling*: la haw shd3wa kubarna

S3oud *laughing*: a6afrech

Chena 6aya7 elmyana elakh? bs 7aram he's sweet ..

S3oud: sbou3 elyay benyekum 3ashan elkhe6ba

Me: ee galy uboy

S3oud: entay ma3ndech ela ukho wa7ed 9a7?

Me: ee bas 3aziz, enta 3endekk bs sara?

S3oud: swaira ou salman! salman yadress bara

Me: ah alah ykhalehum lek inshala

S3oud: wekhalech ly inshala

I giggled in a shly way ..

Me *shyly*: lazem asakra

S3oud *laughing hard*: esta7aitay?

Me: mmm .. la 3ady hehe

S3oud: yala hal mara bakhaleech et9akrena lana awal mara bas mu t3edenha

Me: hehe inshala

S3oud: yala alah ma3ach

I closed the phone from s3oud with a smile on my face, I think I started to like him, y3ni he's sweet to me and everything how wouldn't I like him? but there is still part of my heart where faris is, I still have feelings for him mu shwayaa what we had! but I need to forget him ..

I thought of visiting faris, but I just couldn't! I feel like if I did then im cheating on s3oud! UGHH! everything is getting so complicated ..

A week passed, elyoum youm elkhe6ba the men were coming to dewanyat uboy so they could plan everything out! i'm kinda excited maybe s3oud can make me forget faris, MAYBE!!

Maysa was in my house ..

Me: way mayso 7ady ga3da a7aty

Maysa *giggled*: haw laish t7ateen? tara mentay dasha 3alaihum

I looked a her ..

Me *giggling*: haw adry

Maysa: 3ayl youm el3ers shbetsaween

Me: ush la abchi al7een

Maysa: olah olaah hatha wentaw lail7een matadron meta el3erss

Me: elfekra bas tkhaar3ny

Maysa: zayoun?

Me: hmm?

Maysa: laish makentay khayfa laman faris ya2 yakh6bch?

I looked at her again ..

Me: maysa, faris kent a3rfa wa3rfa 3adel ba3ad kent a7s bl aman ma3aa! bas s3oud, u know t3rft 3alaih taqreban mn sbo3ain o masolafna wayed ya3ni madre uhwa shinu nou3aa! 7ady khayfa mayso

Maysa *hugging me*: latkhafeen 7abeebty, everythings gonna be ok

Me: I hope so

Maysa looked at the ground, elyom la7atht enha mu 6abe3ya chna 9ayer shayy ..

Maysa: hm?

Me: shfeeech?

Maysa: mafeni?

Me: etchathbeen 3alay? golaay yala tara ana a3rfech akthar men nafsech

Maysa: agoolch b3dain maby akhareb 3alaich hal laila

Me: la ana abeech etgolely al7een! maysa shd3wa tara mu lailat 3ersy

Maysa *looked at the gound*: ok

Me: ???

Maysa: shaikha legoha eb night club fe sheqa eb 7awali *she looked the other side, makanat t7e6 3ainha b3ainy*

Me *shocked*: mnu eli legahaa?

Maysa: elmaba7eth, ou hala ma3aha b3aad 

I was too shocked and surprised ..

Me: ay shaayy abaihh!!

A tear fell on maysa's cheek

Maysa: zayoun ana wayed thayeg khelgi 3ala khalaty! eli weld'ha 6aye7 eb ghayboba! wely bent'ha mag6o6a bl sejen! everything is happening shit in our family

I hugged her so tight ..

Me: 7abeebty intay! alah yajerhum bas wala kheera golay el7amdela

Maysa *breathing heavily*: el7amdelaaa! I don't know what to do without u wala!

We kept talking about random things, I was still shocked about salfat shaikha and hala! 9ej ina eldenya dawara ou alah maythaye3 7ag elmathloom ..

When the men left, my parents called me, I went down to find mama, baba and aziz!

Baba: alf mabrouk ya bnayty

Me: alah ybarek feekk

Mama: alah ywafgch inshalaaa

I smiled shyly ..

Aziz: mabroooook! mani m9adeg hal nezqa betzawaj

Me: hehe alah ybarek feek *whispering* 3gbalek int ou rahouf

Aziz blushed, CUTEEEE!

Baba: elmelcha elshahar elyay inshala wel 3ers eb shahar wa7ed

We were on september ..

Me: inshala

Mama: waleed etfaqtaw 3al mahar?

Baba: la wala sta7ait getlhum eli eyey menkum zain

Mama: ee bs shaklhum mara7 ybkhlon

Baba: ee bayen 3alaihum khosh nas

They continued there talking, I went upstairs and found a missed call from s3oud, I called him back ..

S3oud: hala b3arosty

Me *shyly*: ahlain

S3oud: men gady batzawaj wa7da bhal jamaal! 9akaitay 3ala kim kardashian

I giggled ..

Me: int mn mu3jabeen kim?

S3oud: mu mu3jaab bs ena kent ashofha 7ilwa! bas mu mn 3ugb masheftch! laman sheftch nesait kim o 6wayfha

Me *shyly*: ya 7ilwekk

S3oud: shinuu?

Me *giggling*: shnu eli shnu? 

S3oud: 3eeday eli gelty

Me: maku

S3oud: yalaaa 3ad! testakhsren 3lay wanasty?

Me: la 7asha

S3oud: 3ayal yalaa

Me *whispering*: ya 7ilwek

S3oud *shouting*: el7alaaa kela feeech yal 7ala la la etkalam 3an 7ala

Me *giggling*: baihhh shakhbari hal ghneya

S3oud: weli ygoolch tawa yheb feha?

I laughed hardly ..

Me: men9ejeekk?

S3oud *giggling*: ee wala! laish laih hal daraja ana ghadeem?

Me *laughing*: ufff 7adeekk! way ghbar ghbaaar

S3oud: KAAAAK! yeslamly khefat eldaaam

Me: sheftt shloooun?

S3oud: yal theqaaa

Me: may7glyy?

S3oud: a9lan eltheqa ma7alat ela 3alaich

He reminded me of faris, he used to always say to me this sentence ..

Me: hehe

S3oud: zayouna fech shay?

Me: la bas daykha manemt 3ael elyoum

S3oud: 3ayal yala akhaleech! tagha6ay 3adel

Me: inshala

S3oud: noum el3wafy

Me: alah y3afeek

UGHHH! I really need to forget faris!!!! May9eeer I think of him even when im talking to s3oud! its like cheating on s3oud! and I don't want this to happen because s3oud is gonna be my husband soon ..

Chapter 28

3ami mansour *angrily*: ee 9ayer shay *while staring at salem*

Me: eee esh9ayer?

Salem: ana 6alagt lama! zaaain??

Baba *surprised*: la 7awla wla quwata ela bela! enzain laish?

3ami mansour: lana hatha mafe khair 3ala murta wala 3aalaa baitaa

Salem looked annoyed, his eyes were red! shakla kan shway o yet'hwash m3a ubo so 3ala 6oul gam ou 6alaa3 ..

Baba, 3ami mansour and mama ghanima were talking at the other side of the room, I think its about salem and why he divorced lama! I went and sat next to shadan and rahaf ..

Me: shadan esh9ayerr? shfehum salem ou lama?

Shadan: madre salem 9ayer mayt7acha! shaklhum mart7aw 7g b3th! mn tezawjaw ou lama maskeena kela yaya 7g omy teshteky

Me: weeeh thaygtay khelgy walah! 3ad 7araam mayestahlon

Shadan: ee ba3ad 3umryy

Rahaf: ela ta3alay zayoun tawa mama ghanima tgol falaitaw elkhe6ba intay ou faris, 9iijj?
Why do you have to remind me? AHHHH! I want to cryyyyyy! ma9adgna 3ala alah netzawaaj now look whats happening:(

Me *sadly*: ee

Rahaf hugged me ..

Rahaf: ma3laaaih 7abeebty alah mu katebb

Shadan: eyelch eli a7san men faris inshalah

A7san men faris? ma3tqed fee:(! UGHH! why can't I hate him already???

Mama ghanima came to us ..

Mama ghanima: 7ayaate zayouna! wayed za3alt lma sema3t enkum falaitaw elkhe6ba! bas yala eyeech eli a7san menna ya bnayty intay tawech shaba latethaygeen khelgch

Rahaf: elyoum kela akhbar shainaa

I smiled weakly & quickly went to the bathroom, I felt like crying and I didn't want anyone to see me ..

I cried and cried at the bathroom! crying is only what im doing these days! ughh, I really need to forget him because im dying over here ..

When I went out of the bathroom, I saw maysa coming running to the bathroom ..

Me: oh entay meta yetaay?

Maysa: tawny tawwny! hach mobiley badesh el7amaam!

She gave me her iphone and quickly went inside the bathroom! While her iphone is in my hand it beeped when I saw the name it was faris! yaaatni el legafa eny aby ashoof, I don't know why bas men sheft esma galby faaz and I opened at there chat ..

*whatsapp chat between faris and maysa*

Maysa: faris men9ejeek falait elkhe6baaa?

Faris: la atghashmar ma3aha! akeed men9eji

Maysa: eee laisshhh

Faris: ehya tadri laish

Maysa: laykoon 3ashan salfat lorenzo? faris elbent mathloooma:) zayoun makanat 6al3a ma3a hal 9bay! shaikha bent khaltek hal nesra ou hala rfejat zayoun eli 6la3t 3adwa mu rfeeja uhma eli mkha6e6en kel haatha

Faris: shemkh6e6en? maysa btqn3eeny ena galolaha ge3day ma3a hal rayal t3shay ma3a ben9awrkum ou bteg3ad? shayftny thour jedamch?

Maysa: shaaaku al7een? hala kanat 6al3a ma3a zayoun yet3ashon ou faj2a waldain yaw o g3edaw ma3ahum bl 6awla! ou hathaila rabe3 hala elwaskha mu zayoun! la tathlem elbent 7araam

Faris: intay lateg3den etdaf3een 3anha 3ala bona bent 3aamch! yala goleely wain hala bl 9oura? ou zayoun ma3ndaha reel 3ashan tgom lama g3edaw? maysa tukfain 9akray elmawtho3 bro7y metnarfez la agleb 3alaich al7een

Maysa: mara7 askett ela lama teqtene3 beli agouulaa! faris 7aram 3alaaikk walah

Faris: ana ma 3umri fakart bhal shay bas al7een staw3bta, madam enha kalmtny akeed betkalam malyon wa7ed ghairy

This was the last thing in there convo! ma9adegggg, ma9adeg faris! I never knew he was that mean! wala 7araaam 3alaih! but I have to be strong, I have to forget him! remember zayoun, 7ayatech matogaf 3ala raayal? I also remembered what mama said 'ely mayabena manaby'! kafe mara7 athel 3umry 3ashaana! ana tawni eb 3ez shababy wel denya jedami, I won't cry, I won't cry, I'll stay strong and I'll forget him!

After four months ..

I already graduated from school and now im studying in KU, aziz is studying in gust, aziz & rahaf's relationship is getting stronger day by day! aziz couldn't stop talking about her, she also talk non stop about him when im with her! they seemed deeply in love with each other!

Maysa have this huge crush for salem, and salem seemed like he have something for her! he's always nervous when she's around!

Basma, jude & I's relationship is SO good! we hang out alot even though we finished high school! basma and jude also had a big fight with hala, she's not our friend anymore! she totally changed, she's more like shaikha now, MEAN! they're also best friends now ..

I finally got over faris, I feel like I still have something for him! but not like before you know, wayed badaa3 feni akher fatrat khe6btna! mayestahel eni a7ebaaa

But the weird part is I didn't here any news about faris and shaikha getting engage! and maysa told me that shaikha is dying for faris, she's trying to get his attention but he doesn't give her any chance ..

One day, I was sitting in the living room when mama came ..

Me: ha mn wain yaya?

Mama: mn eljam3yaa! agool zayoun

Me: hmm? *while watching tv*

Mama: elyom dagaw 3alay yakh6bonch ..

Me: yuma ana cham mara getlch iny maby atzawaj al7een? 9akray elmawthou3 please

Mama: ee bas 7abeebty entay youch wayed khu6aab mashala 3yal ne3ma wel sana3 kela fehum o kelehum refaththum! may9eer chethy ya yuma! tara elfur9a lai ra7at matred! weli kha6bech mashala 3alaih sana3 o akhlaq o weld 3aylaa ya3ni 7aram tarftheena

Mama was kinda right, wayed wayed yoly kha6a6eeb akher fatra o kelehum refatht'hum, 7asait mabi atzawaj al7een! matkhayal nafsy ma3a wa7ed mu faris! bas lazem atghayaar! lazem ..

Mama: ya mama tara ana om, o el om akeed tabi tefra7 b3yalha! far7eeni ya 7abeebty! khaleeni ashofch 3aroosa, khaleni ashoof 3yalch

Me *nervously*: madre yuma madre

Mama: khal eyoon 7abeebty wentay shofe matadreen ymken terta7ainla

Me: hmm, ok ok! men welda?

Mama: esma s3oud alflany 

Me: ok golelhum eyoon

A tear of happiness fell on mama's cheeks, she kissed my cheeks then I kissed her forehead ..

Mama: alah ywafgch yal ghalia

I agreed to see this man, 7ayate lazem matogaf 3ala faris eli ba3ni! I'm still young and I have to live my life mu uhwa eli y3algny feh b3dain yatrkny ..

Anyways days passed by! today is the day that s3oud, his mother and his sister are coming to see me! I changed in to a white comfortable dress and put on an trendy purple head band and made my way outside to go to the salon ..

While walking to my aston martin, I saw a g-class parking near our house! as soon as I saw the g-class someone got out of it and made there way to me! it was FARIS! Omg shyaaaby hatha?

Faris: elsalaam

Me: w3alykum elsalam *while opening my car door to get in*

Faris: la7tha zayoun ..

Me: khair?

Faris: abe akalmech eb mawtho3, mumken tesm3eeni?

Me: maku mwathee3 baina

Faris: ana 3endy mawthou3 abi akalmch fee, mumkn?

Me: gouul bser3a mabi at2khar

Faris: maysa kalamtni, ou fakart eb kalamha weqtana3t! ana asef zayoun, wala asef adry ghala6t eb 7agch o thalamtch o qathaitch 3al fathy bas wala ana nadmaaan! sam7eeni tukfain o khanabdi 9af7a yedeeda ..

Me *laughing sarcastically*: nabdy 9af7a yedeeeda? yayly 3ugb arba3 tash'her ou tgoly ana qtana3t o fakart eb kalamha? laish 7sbalek ana ban6erek? le3ba ana 3endek meta ma7sait eb qal6etek yetny? khalaaa9 ana 3eftekk mabeek

Faris: zayoun ana ma 3umri karahtech! matadreen sh9ar feni lama falaina elkhe6ba wala matadren! KARAHT 3EESHTI! 7asait ena fe shay nage9 eb 7ayate, shay wayed 7ilu! bas elshay6an ga9 3alay o khaleeni a9adeg hal sheeeefa shaikha!!!! wala ana nadman ya alzain wala! khanabdy 9af7a yedeeda o aw3dech eni matrkech

Me: ana asfa lazem amshy! wekon eb 3elmek, elyoum yayeenly khu6ab! ya3ni ensa eni arja3lek!

Faris face was like that ':|' bethaaaab6!!!!! 7asait men kethr ma uhwa ma9doom mu gader yet7acha! Rekabt sayarti ou mashait wehwa lail7een wagef eb mukana ma9doom mat7arak! 7asait eb ta2neeb shwaya! bs latlmoony ana wayed enthalamt ma3aa ou mu meste3da aredla!

I went to the salon, did my hair to a trendy simple hair style, I looked cute! .. I went back home, I put on my make up then went out to the living room to show my mother ..

Me: yuma 7ilu mekyaaji?

Mama: ee smela 3alaich eyanen mashalaaa

Suddenly aziz came from downstairs *kan mesta3yel*

Mama: 3azouz yuma waain raye7 shfeek mesta3yel?

Aziz: yuma ana raye7 elmustashfa tabeen shay?

Mama: weeee laish elmustashfa b3d?

Aziz: rfeejy msawy 7adeth o eb ghayboba

Mama: alah ykaaafena elshaaar! mnu rfeejek alah y3een ahala

Aziz: faris alflany

FARIS?:O faris sawa 7aaaadeth???

Mama: wee faris weld nawal? 7abeeebty msaicheena! mayestahlon 3aad

Aziz went ..

I was shocked. really shocked.

Me: yuma degay 3ala

khalti nawal shofay sh9ayer?

Mama: akeed matadry 3an mobileha al7een w3alaya 3alaiha! bacher wela 3ugba adegg

NO! I want to know how's faris!!! If he died I'll blame myself!!! cus he crashed eb sebeti!!! ana eli ga6ait 3alaih kalam elyoum el3a9er eb baitna! this can't be happening:'( not todaaay!!!

Mama: yala gomay badlay shway weyoon

Me *still shocked*: inshala

Chapter 27

Shocked shocked shocked is an understatement!!! khanfel elkhe6ba? without a reason? what have I doneeee?

I decided to call him, he didn't answer me for maybe 2 calls then finally he answered! I was too shocked & nervous madri shfeeni ..
Me: akheeeran radait?

Faris: alzain shbghaitay?

Me: faris mumken etfaserly eli tawa geltely eyah eb bbm?

Faris: shfaser? getlch khanfel elkhe6ba! shel 9a3eb bl kelmtain?

Shocked shocked and more shocked!!!!!

Me: enta met2kd enk faris? my faris? laaaish *i started crying* shnu swaitlek 3ashan enfel elkhe6ba

Faris: alzain kelesh mala da3y tabchen! khanfel elkhe6ba we7na 7bayeb

Me: 7bayeb? etgooly 7bayeb wetfel elkhe6ba faj2a ou bedon sebaabb! faris latkhaleni ashekk eb nafsyy! ta7achaa goli sh7aagga

I could hear him breath heavily, he seems too angry ..

Faris: ana mashqol al7een! akalmch b3dain

He closed it right after he finished his sentence! I was too shocked to even cry, what have I done to him? why all of his? enfel elkhe6ba mara wa7da?

Suddenly, mama came to my room ..

Mama: agouul zayouna, makamlna eltajhezat shraych tbadleen ou enro7 360?

Me: mabi ajahez

Mama: haaaw ghubra! laish b3aad tetzawjain o tru7een bait raylech wentay mu mjahza

Me *shouting*: MABI AZAHIB! MABI ATZAWAJ! MABI AROU7 BAIT RAYLY!!!!! KHALA9 KHALONY BROOOO7Y

I started to cry my heart out!!!! I was too depressed at the moment eli laih daraja ma7sait eb nafsiii!

Mama seemed shocked from my reaction, she came to me and hugged me

Mama: 7abeeebti intay! haday ou golely shfeeech?

Me *crying*: ma ma feni shaay! khala9 khaleeni broo7y I need to be alone!

Mama: inshalaa 7abeebti

She kissed my cheek and forehead then left my room ..

I started crying so hard the last 30 minutes, when suddenly someone came inside my room, I couldn't see who from how blurry my eyes were from crying

...: ZAYOOOOUN! abaaaihhh shfeeech?

She came closer and finally I could see her face, MAYSA <3

Me: maaaaayyysaa!

I hugged her so tight!

Maysa: 7abeeebty entay! omich tawa dagat 3alay ga3da tabchy tgol zayouna madri shfeeha khara3teeha ou khara3teni! shfeech sh9ayerrr?

7aaaarraamm omy!!! </3

Me *crying*: maaayysaaa! its farriss

Maysa: ou shfeee fariiss?

Me *crying*: faaaj2a gali khanfel elkhe6baaa

Maysa *surprised*: na3am? shnu tfelon elkhe6baa? laishhh zayoun sh9ayer?

Me: madre wala madree *snif* faj2a gali khanfel elkhe6ba wana madri shswait *snif* wala maysa gemt ashek bnafsy

Maysa: 7ayateee haday! mas2lty laish?

Me: dagaait 3alaih! 7ata mala nafss ykalemny

Maysa hugged me tight, again ..

Maysa: 7abebti namaay intay al7een ou mn a9ba7 aflaa7

Me: namay 3ndy please

Maysa: ee adry yayba malabsi 3ashan anam

Me and maysa talked a bit! but we didn't talk about faris at all, maysa makanat tabi tetkalam 3anna 3ashan I forget bas I didn't, he was on my mind the whole time! I was thinking what have I donee to him!!!

We slept and woke up the next day! I decided to skip school! mabuga shay 3al finals ou khala9na elmanhaj so I don't need to go! I called faris ..
Faris: aloo

Me: we need to talk

Faris: yes we do

Me: ..

Faris: today? caribou salheya?

Me: ok

Faris: 12 etheher?

Me: ok

Faris: bye

I closed the phone immediately and looked at my watch, its 10:39 in the morning! maysa went to her house and I took a long warm relaxing shower, then wore a black free city pants and a white plain shirt, I tied my hair in to a messy bun! I wasn't in the mood to dress up!

I went to my aston martin! oh I took my license on my birthday and my parents bought me an aston martin as a gift for my birthday! I was so thankful for them <3

Anyways, I went to alsalheya and to caribou coffee, I spotted faris sitting on a table on the side, so I went to him

He stood up ..

Faris: elsalam 3alaikum

Me: w3laykum salaam

I sat there, awkward silence ..

Faris: a6leblch shay?

Me: la ana bs yaya asma3 mennek ou ba6la3

Faris: zayoun, shofay ana gaylch mn awal, ana ensan ma7eb elaf wl dawran fa badesh seeda ma3ach
Me: ok?..

Faris: ana wayed sema3t kalam 3anech, wayed wayed! bas 6waaft lana adri inch mu men hal mustawa! bas lama sheft eb 3ainy magedart, achatheb 3aini b3aad??

Me: shsema3t? faris int shetkharbe6? ou esheftt?

Faris took his blackberry and put it close to my eyes

Faris angrily: matgolely hatha minuuu????

It was a pic of me and jarra7 in lorenzo the other day! jarra7 was smiling and I was looking the other way! kent adawer hala fa wayhy makan ybayen lo m3a9ba wela mestansaa:)

Me: faris, its not what you think!

Faris: not what i think? alzain shinu ya3ni ga3da ma3a wa7ed eb mukan 3am la ou yet'tha7klch b3add? entay mu makh6oba? matest7eeen?

Me: faaariss elsalfaaa mu ely ebalekk esma3ni khal afahmekk!

Faris: shetfahmeni? ana kan 7sbali ench ghair, ghair 3an kel elbanat! 6ala3tay wa7da men hal banat elfe9aa3! wala matwaq3t'ha mench! ana menzman kanat t7athrni shaikha bas men dazatli el9ora ta2kadt malyon bl emyaa

Faris was angry, really angry! kan elkalam bl yalah ye6la3 men 7alja o wayha kan a7maar and he was gritting his teeth!

Me: entaaa esma3ny bl awaaaal, hala ehya eli kha6e6at 3ala hal shay ana male sheghl wala

Faris: ba3ad etchathben? hala shaku a9lan? lateblain 3al nas! shaikha eli dzatly el9ora! ana el ghal6an eli mthaye3 wagti

He left the place, left me sitting here alone!

I was about to cry but people were staring! so I quickly went to my car and drived back home! once I arrived I cried and cried! whats happening? shfee mu rathi yesma3ni? kelaaa men shaikha and hala!!!! GOD HOW I HATE THEM!!!!

I was crying and crying! after that I washed my face then peeked at my phone! a message from shaikha caught my eyes ..

Shaikha:
Ana getlch hal khe6ba mara7 et6awel;) remember what I told you bel shalaih? faris is MINE!! and you shouldn't play hard with shaikha alflany cus she's ALWAYS the winner;)

One word: YAHEL!!!! men9ejha hathi? thameerha ma y2nbha?? 3ugub kel eli saweta ham laha 3ain etdez message? matest7y? bas 6abee3y, hal bent mat3ref el3aib:) ..

Whatever mara7 a3awr rasy ma3a hal mareetha, all I could think of now is faris, faris and FARIS!!!

I called him for couple of times he ignored, he deleted me from bbm too! Jad yqeth shlon tesara3 bl salfa ou sema3 shaikha's side of the story & didn't here mine :)! im sure shaikha & hala planned all of this together! hala was one of my best friends! kelesh matwqa3t menha hal 7arkat! enas 9araw malhum amaan kelesh :)

Mama came to my room ..

Mama: zayouna 7abeebty

I was laying in bed like a dead person, I felt lifeless and unwanted! 7asait nafsy mathlooma! I have nothing to do with all of this shit happening to me!

Me: hmm! mama please abi anam

Mama: yuma shfeech? entay maretha?

Me: la yuma maku shay! bs ta3bana shway 

Mama: mm! zayouna?

Me: hala Yuma

Mama: tawa khaltech nawal dagat

I was laying in bed but as soon as i heard khalty nawals name I got up and sat at my bed ..

Me: shgalaat?

Mama: mm, galat .. galat ena ma7a9al ne9eeb ou faris matadri shfe faj2a hawan ou shal fekrat elzawaj mn rasa mu leyya! laish 7abeebty 9ayer shay bainkum? min ams wentay madry shfeech?

A hot tear fell on my cheeks ..

Me: ok

Mama: shinu ok?

Me: ok ya3ni enzain! shel ma6lob? shsaweela? mayaby yetzawaj, ok! be6agag mu elaa a9lan ana ba3ad maby atzawaaj! KAIFFA MU LAZEM MU LAZEEEM!!

I started crying, I tried so hard to swallow my tears but I couldn't! I started crying my heart out at my mothers lap ..

Mama *crying*: bas khalaa9 7abebty bas ya 3umry latsaween b3umrech chethyyy! matogaf 7ayatech 3ashan rayal, ok ya mama? ensyyy ensyy

Me *crying*: yuma magdar maaagdar! entay mu faaahma shesalfaa ana mathlooma ya yuma ana mathloma

Mama: laish 7abeebty? golely shesalfa yemken agdar asa3dech! e3tabreny rfeejtch mu omich

I didn't want to tell my mother what happened the other day at lorenzo, elsalfaa tfashel el9araa7a ou mabi elsalfa tekbaarr khala9 eli fat maat! 6agag eli y6g'hum! I don't want shaikha, hala and faris in my life anymore ..

Me: yuma khala9 a7taj eni ag3ad bro7yy maby atkalam bl mawtho3! please khalaa9 sa3dony ansaaa

Mama *while tearing up*: inshala ya 3umry, dayman tethkri ely mayabena manaby 9a7?

Me *smiling a weak smile*: 9a7

She kissed my forehead and left my room, I checked my phone and found a missed call from maysa

I called her back and told her everything . .
Maysa: ma9adegggg shaikha!!! wala la raweech feeeha walah!

Me: bas maysa 6agag eli y6egha khatwaaly tukfain hal bent maynona manaby mashakel ma3aha

Maysa: wai3 wai3 karht'ha! matwq3t kel hatha ye6la3 men bent khalty! wala metfashlaa

Me: laish etfshlain? hal bent mu 9a7ya! kaifha tabi faris? khal takhtha a9lan la3aaaat chabdi menhum athnainhum ma yaw warahum ela el haaam

Maysa: adry elkalam mu men galbech

Me: maysa tukfain, tukfain sa3deeny ansaaa

Maysa: mu bkaifch wala bkaifa! ana ra7 akalma wafaahma mu bkaifa chethy yatrekech! a9lan lo yadri intay mathloma chan 9adgeny matrkech wla degeega

Me: latkalmeena! mu lazem yredly a9lan! mara7 a3eesh m3a wa7ed 6ol 7ayate ou uhwa eshek feeni bser3a! athbatli ena mala amaan

I talked to maysa for a while, baba came to my room and told me ena its 'kheera' o 'alah mu kateb hal zawaj' its so heartful to here it walah but I have to be strong:( he also told me that we'll go to mama ghanima's house so I wore anything I was so not in the mood bs menzman mu shayfa mama ghanima so lazem ..

Baba & I arrived to mama ghanima's house .. we found rahaf, shadan, 3ami mansour *shadans dad*, mama ghanima and salem *shadans brother eli kan 3ersa eb awal el story remember?*

Baba: elsalam 3alaykum

All: w3laykum elsalam

We kissed mama ghanima's forehead, they all looked depressed kelhum sakteen kanaw I looked at my father with questioning eyes ena shesalfa?

Baba: yuma 9ayer shay? shfeekum?

Mama ghanima looked at the ground ..